A few days ago I started going through the posts that I have written so far and giving them various "labels" for the different topics that I have focused on. Things like motherhood, parenting, personal growth, faith, exercise, women... etcetera, etcetera. As I was labeling, I found myself tempted to create a "good day" and "bad day" label, because I certainly seemed to have a clear swing in one direction or another on most days.
Today would have gotten a bad day label. I don't even want to tell you that, because I hate that I have had so many bad days to tell you about. Sure there are plenty of good days, but on bad days it's hard to remember that. I mean, it feels like I JUST had a bad day, I shouldn't be due for another one just yet. Mostly I'm frustrated because I sense that I'm neglecting too much agency in working to
cause my days to be better. I do believe that happiness is a choice, or
as a good friend recently put it, happiness is a series of choices.
I want to say that I'm not entirely sure which choices I should be making that I'm not currently, but maybe that's just me being in denial. And while I believe that happiness can be easily impacted by your circumstances, I don't believe that your circumstances control your happiness.
I don't have anything profound to say tonight, mostly just that I feel like the circumstances of my day didn't quite warrant the difficulty I had with it. I think tonight might be a good night to ponder on what better choices I can make tomorrow, that I neglected to make today. I'm going to go do that now.
Labels: Motherhood, Personal Growth