Conference today was so wonderful. I think my heart was in good condition today, and it really helped me to get a lot out of the sessions. I've been feeling like I have kept hitting these peaks of difficulty in my life over the last month or so. By the time I've woken up for the seventh time in a night, and I'm completely exhausted, and my body is aching for sleep; it is so hard to dig down and find the strength not to be irritated or upset. I have found myself either angrily or hopelessly questioning why I am having to go through this trial, why can't I just have this burden removed?
Today I felt like I saw a glimpse of the "why" on the other side of these difficulties. It's personal, so I won't share it here, but I hope that it gives me the strength in the next hard moment to dig and find a little more patience, or a little more love, or a little more strength. I feel like these challenges have helped to highlight weaknesses which I have that need to be worked on, ones I would not have discovered otherwise, and will need to be resolved if I can keep moving forward on the path that I believe is set before me.
I hope that I can keep that vision with me in any coming dark or difficult moments.Labels: Faith, Personal Growth