I officially have a two year old! I have officially been a mom for two years. Can you believe it?
Today was such a nice day, we spent a lot of time outside, which is pretty much Peter's favorite thing ever. Grandma and Grandpa Cluff came to visit us and so did Uncle Eric. I made a cake (with this chocolate buttercream frosting that was a new recipe- YUMMY), and decorated it with some chocolate and Peter loved that. I made a car shape because he love love loves cars. Peter didn't really get the blowing out the candles thing, but he sure loved eating that chocolate.
By the evening Peter was seeming subdued again, similar to how he was acting while he was sick. He didn't sleep/nap great last night/today, and I hope that was why. Sometimes I worry about him. It's so hard to know what is in the normal range and when something might be wrong. He doesn't seem as agile as other toddlers the same age. He seems more cautious and he's always been very sensitive to stimulus. Things like the limp that was never figured out and something so small causing a fracture makes me wonder if there's some systematic thing wrong. And then I wonder if it's all because of me. I can be pretty overly cautious, did I cause that tendency in him? Did I keep the house too quiet when he was little and make him sensitive? Do I not encourage him to run and jump and climb enough? And then I think that NOTHING is wrong and not every child will be exactly the same and everything is fine and I should stop worrying so much. Being a parent is hard. It's hard to feel responsible for this little being who needs so much from you and can communicate so little of those needs.
Two years, two years of worry and wonder and stretching and learning. And two years of watching this tiny baby turn into this amazing little boy. I feel so privileged that Heavenly Father trusted me to be Peter's mother.
Labels: Family, Motherhood
