I'm writing this post on my phone because I am stuck in my recliner with a finally sleeping baby. We took Carolyn in to the doctor today because last night she was clearly miserable and woke up every 30-60 minutes all night. By 4:30 am she and I had only gotten a broken three hours of sleep, maybe. I finally had to hand her off to Marty and got to sleep for a couple hours.
We started thinking last night that she had pink eye in both eyes, and this morning I woke up with a nice red crusty eye too. At the doctor we found out that she has an ear infection. So she's on antibiotics now.
Peter was still getting hives off and on today, I'm thinking that they come on when he gets really upset, which has been happening much more easily while he's been sick.
The good news is that Peter's infection as subsided significantly and he hardly complained of pain today.
Today Marty fasted for us and gave each of us a blessing. I can't even describe how grateful I am for him, especially for being strong while I am feeling so weak.
I really hope we're at the end of things getting worse. I'm amazed at how hard this has been on me. Feeling terrible myself and then having two miserable children crying for me to help them while my hands are so tied. It hurts to feel so helpless to relieve them. I find myself turning off feeling because I don't want it to hurt anymore. Tonight in the blessing I was blessed to be able to connect with the love in me when it was difficult. I hadn't told Marty I had been feeling that way. It was pretty overwhelming to feel how intimately my Heavenly Father knows me.
Here's to love and hope and maybe even better health tomorrow.
Labels: Motherhood